i wish i was driving

a playlist

(FYI plenty of songs with explicit lyrics in here so maybe don’t blast this at work until you give it a glance over.)

It’s been about three years since I drove a car.

I was visiting my parents, jumped in their van, and headed to pick up something at the grocery store like it was NOTHING. Controlling a giant death machine with my right foot that sometimes cramps? Nothing!!! I was a god! I could go anywhere! At a variety of speeds! There was constant air conditioning or heat and I could play my music LOUD wherever I went because wherever I went was also in this marvelous machine! 

I haven’t owned a car since I moved to DC and I genuinely never regret it. Don’t get me wrong, I hate how difficult it can be to get to certain theatres or get-togethers. I often have to ask for a ride (which takes me straight back to early high school in ways both darling and embarrassing - I could write another newsletter about sitting in someone else’s front seat). But I also love public transportation and exploring DC on foot and not paying for gas. Maybe I still feel some silly romanticism around pubtranspo since I didn’t grow up with it. I mean, I wrote a whole play about one train line.

But… sometimes… a song comes through my earbuds and like a smash cut I can see myself driving through the flat Texas countryside, window down, music blasting, a too-large drink in my cup holder, the dry wind whipping my hair.

So I made a playlist. If you miss driving I hope it brings back some fond memories. If you’re still driving I hope it gives you some tunes to have car feelings to.

Britt A Willis writes this newsletter and is a playwright, game writer, and designer in Washington, DC. You can find out more about their work at brittawillis.com or follow them on Twitter @feelingfickle.

Photo by Warren Wong on Unsplash. Image description: An image taken from inside the car, as if driving, looking out on a sunset over a flat landscape and road.